In 2016, influenced by Makoto Shinkai’s film 5 Centimeters per Second, I photographed to explore how my understanding and experience of love shaped my interaction with the environment around me.
The film explores how nostalgia and longing for a former lover can become haunting, and illustrates this through somber and dream-like commonplace landscapes. Ordinary scenes that are otherwise unimpressionable, such as train stations, are rendered romantically nostalgic in melancholy colors and light. Influenced by Shinkai, I had seen love, and life, as beautifully tragic codependents.
As a result, I became hyperaware of the melancholic qualities in the landscape I experienced everyday: changing lines at the La Motte-Piquet-Grenelle train station, waiting for the train at Franklin D. Roosevelt, the view of smoke pipes distorted by my window screen, and so on. These unmeditated sights, captured on my iPhone, embody the somber mood that was my constant state of mind, as I found myself struggling in a confusing relationship.