managed to scare me away from my/our fondest memories. places disappear, blank recollection. where was i?
recalling peace... recalling nothing... only recalling numbness and scratched memories. i wish i can close my eyes and see myself smiling. but i just see myself right now, in different places, but just the same as right now
the more i move, the less i am able to do it. places fall apart too easily... one day it's all around me, home. the next, it's as if i'm being pushed out of my own memory. i can't think. i can't think of you, of sevres lecourbe, of champ de mars, even of the ampitheater... i can't think of my own room in South Hadley, i can't think of home... nowhere feels safe. nowhere feels untouched by pain
these images were taken in 2014 and 2015, but were altered in the spring of 2017, due to mental and physical pain that had prevented me from taking new pictures at the time.